Hey lovelies. So I didn’t post last month, I’m sorry.
My life’s a little shit right now. My fibromyalgia may not be fibromyalgia but something worse.
Through work I’ve been seeing a physiotherapist who asked me a load of questions, did some funny tests and experiments on me and advised I see my Dr to refer me to a neurologist.
For the past 5 days I’ve been in pain. For the past 3 it’s been extremely painful. I’ve never phoned in sick for work. However the past 2 days I’ve had too.
I can’t get out of bed without a struggle, walking is excruciating, sitting is starting to get unbearable. Eating hurts my jaw that I’m not really eating at all. Finally breathing hurts my ribs and back that I’m breathing a lot slower as I’m holding my breath.
I tried showering today and even the water was hurting my skin. I felt like I’d been sunburnt (note I live in the north east of England) what is the sun? I had the water on a low heat as well. Drying my skin felt like I had been beaten up all over. Overall it took me 1hour to shower, dry and dress.
I’m constantly dropping things. I burn myself daily on cups of tea/coffee and just accept it (WTF?!?!?). I don’t know how I don’t need a new phone either. I’d love to know what it feels like to not have numb or tingling toes/feet.
Currently I’m having to bum shuffling up and down the stairs to get to the toilet and back down.
Even sleeping is impossible. I’d drift off to sleep and all of a sudden my legs with go big a jumping spasm.
And lastly I’d love to know why I have to tell my brain that I need to swollen my food and tablets several times before it actually connects.
I just feel so exhausted. I want to go to work, I want to get out of the house it’s just the pain and fatigue will not allow this.
I hope I get referred sooner rather than later and find out if it is or isn’t fibromyalgia.
Sorry this has been a right rant. I guess all I’m saying is don’t take simple day to day tasks for granted.